Evening Vaginistas,
I've
not written anything for aaages on here, and you know why?
Drumroll
please.............(A bit better than that, come on now, put some
effort in.....Thanks)
I'm
cured.
I'M
CURED
I mean.......I
can't even really believe it still to be honest. After years of uncertainty,
humiliating doctors appointments, two years of therapy, lots of
hilarious, agonising, awful moments, body-crippling pain, confusion,
self-loathing, border-line hysteria, and buckets and buckets full of
over-sharing, I beat vaginismus. I fucking BEAT the fucker!
I
wanted to come to you all with a lovely fairytale ending, but
actually when it comes down to it, it didn't take a prince on a steed
to sweep me off my feet, which isn't really very *me* anyway.
OK, maybe it is a little bit....
oh Eric, when will you come for me? |
Obviously
at SOME point it did require a man's involvement, and without going into too much detail (I know, I know, why start now right?!) not only can I now DO the sex, I even ENJOY the sex. Waa!* but even so, it isn't really down to my partner. (Sorry. You did very
well though dear). Ahem.
It
took determination, and patience, and a bloody huge dose of being
able to laugh at myself, and laydeez, it has paid off. From this very
self-effacing speech you would be fair in saying that that I seem just a little bit proud of
myself, and I really am. I'm also amazed – I don't think I ever really believed it
could work, until it actually did.
I'm
cured.
Thank
you so much for everyone who has been involved in this blog, to the
lovely friends who've listened to me telling them in great detail
about my vagina, and to everyone who is going through the journey too
- I hope that if you take nothing else from my blog, you take this –
we can beat the fucker. I did it, and I am capable of tripping over
perfectly flat surfaces.....which is possibly slightly irrelevant,
but you get my drift.
Thanks
so much. With lots of love from me and my fully functioning,
no-longer the lady-with-a-clamp vag.
Keeks
x
* In case you're wondering who the frightfully lucky young chap is, I managed to bag myself the aforementioned posh totty,from previous posts - the lucky devil
Wow! That's fab news, well done you. Really heartening to hear this, congrats.
ReplyDeleteIt's given me the kick up the arse to keep tackling my own hostile vagina!
K
Yay Keeks!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy for you! Thanks for putting this blog out there and although i will miss your humorous antics, i shall just have to bear in mind that you don't have time for self-deprecating humour with all that wonderful painfree sex you're having ;-)
Best of luck with le garcon
xx
N
Really heartening to hear this, congrats.
ReplyDelete@ the beginning of the journey, glad to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
ReplyDelete@ the beginning of the journey, glad to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
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